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Saturday, March 26, 2011

Or is it..?

Fifteen years have passed since. Years, time, almost my entire life to be exact. At this very moment I realize how much has happened since then. What I have done, how I have changed. What I was, what I am, how I will be. It's not the first time I'm actually aware of it, but still, all the memories, all the events.

Ask yourself a honest question: what exactly do you remember? If you go back in youself, how far are you able to go? And what do you see? Is it still complete or can't  you recognize it anymore? To be honest, I do not know the answer to the latter. For me all my old memories, my thoughts, are still present, but not 'there'. If I should describe it, it's like a flow. I'm still able to see how the flow went, but there's no way to see how it was actually moving on a particular day, on a particular moment.



I'm being foolish. I should be glad I I couldn't, since if I would be able to recall all the details in my life I would literally overflow. Of course this isn't valid for some special memories in my life, but as far as I'm concerened I can be categorized as 'normal'. It's normal that when you get born, you have no memories. It's normal that when you get older, you remind things. It's normal then when you age more, you know even more, but unawarely forget things from the past. It's normal that you at this given moment shouldn't remember anything while you were three years old. Yes, three years, three times. Exactly. The. Same. 


Three times I've had this dream, three times unchanged in detail. Unchanged till this very day, still surviving against all the other memories eating up the remainders layer by layer. Now my question to you: how many times have you dreamt exactly the same? And how many times have you remembered exactly the same? As a 'normal' toddler, this can't be his memory.

Or is it...?

30 comments:

  1. one ineresting post i have to admit, very very interesting.

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  2. smoke weed it helps you remember

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  3. @Lincoln

    ...to remember to forget

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  4. hah, there's times when I feel like I've forgotten more than other people have learned.. :P

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  5. You can have a surprising amount of memory - although never all at once. One thing will happen on a certain day, a scent, a visual queue, a word, and it'll bring forth a flow of memories, some maybe that you completely forgot. What the brain is capable of sometimes is staggering, I think that most of the time we just keep with us what we want to, good or bad. The things that help shape us as who we are.

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  6. My own blog is based on a game called Warhammer 40,000. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Warhammer_40,000
    should help to answer /some/ questions, but it's basically a tabletop wargame where you buy, assemble, and paint tiny miniatures of sadistic space elves in my case, and square off like generals in small focal points of wars.

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  7. Wow...deep post man! Looking forward to more, following :)

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  8. Enjoyed this. Looking forward to more like this.

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  9. good luck with your wishes and yeah, nice post

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  10. Very well thought out post, following

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  11. Ever watch 300? I just saw it today, and it had the same effect on me the first time I saw it - I felt like a primal killing machine afterwards. Examining every little small movement of people around me, looking for weakspots to attack, feeling like an animal.

    I do not feel like that normally, but it amazes me that films can have such an effect on you, and you can have those kinds of feelings seem to re-awake in you.

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  12. It seems my memory is clearest when I'm talking to old friends and they say a key word, or do a key thing. Such as my best friend an his infamous sneeze; that sneeze can bring back years of memories I would otherwise be unable to trace back.

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  13. Very inspirational keep up the good work.

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  14. I support the motion: weed is the answer.

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  15. You write well for a ~15yr old

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  16. Excellent post man! Was a really interesting read! thanks for sharing!

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  17. did you just get... inceptioned? :D

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  18. I seriously have to start writing things up. I'm going to regret it later on

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  19. Writing a diary is often the way to go - In the middle of a personal project of mine to record things I feel I know I will never remember.

    It's a really wonderful treat reading back through it all - Thanks for sharing bro.

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  20. I also had a few dreams that repeated exactly the same... was indeed very strange and I still remember those dreams even when it was long ago

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  21. I always dream my teeth fall out D:

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